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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lorien
so its come to this...a new livejournal [again]. just add me and i will add you back~
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| ein schoene Weinachten |
[26 Dec 2005|01:42am] |
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so how was everyone's Christmas? mine was alright i guess. i made cupcakes and cookies and did some shopping on Christmas eve, and after i went to Matt's and did stuff with his family. Christmas day we had breakfast and opened presents, then i went to my dads and played Texas Hold 'em for most of the afternoon. it was fun, probably the best Christmas i have had in a long time. i got:
- a digital camera
- a diamond necklace
- a alexandrite and white gold pendant from Matt
- a sterling silver necklace
- 2 sterling silver rings
- a peridot ring
- a citrine and a zirconia ring
- a black hoodie sweater
- some house sox
- a starbucks giftcard
- dress pants from banana republic
( some pictures )
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| oiy ve |
[22 Dec 2005|11:06am] |
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so yeah, i suck at updating this. i am constantly at a computer but i can't be bothered to make a journal post or make a layout or anything. at the end of the day i dont want to be at a computer anymore unless i have to. is that starnge? i used to be the exact opposite.
christmas is coming up and part of me is dreading it. i hate family gathering holidays because something always ends up saddening. something always pisses me off or makes me discontent with the situation. sadly, the one thing that i enjoyed about the theater was the fact that i could get away on christmas and thanksgiving and easter so i never had to do all the things that i hate or end up even more emotionally scarred than i was the year before. that was the only godsend from that godforsaken job. i almost wish i could go back just for this week.
so yeah work is good but not really. alot of crap has gone down lately and im sort of burnt out from doing it all. these next few weeks will be end-of-the-year cake though. there isn't much to do for our clients cause they're too busy handling their own crap, so we're only working on our personal ventures.
all in all, work has been work as of late.
so then there is all the other stuff that is going on. so far i have only got 2 or the christmas presents that i was planning on getting for everyone...yes 2. and today i get paid so i dont have to worry too much about the whole lack of money issue but i know tomorrow when i finally do decide to go shopping, everyone and their grandmother will be out doing the same. if i didn't have to pay bloody tuition this would have not been a problem in the first place and all my shopping would have been done in november. but maybe i cna get the few gifts i can out of the way [im saving up for a car and a new bed so the only person who should expect fabulous crap from me is Matt].
then there is my sisters wedding crap. we are having issues because my family is footing the bill... but my mom doesn't want to pay for the whole thing and she expects my sister to help. sadly, my sister will be doing 17 credit hours next semester and i dont think there is a way in hell she will pass those classes and still be able to work enough to pay for the type of wedding Logan will need with the 6578436578263785629 relatives he has. so, who knows. we'll see.
other than that my only issue these days is getting a car sometime soon. i need something to at least last me a few years. but all the stuff im finding in my price range are POS-ish and probably wont make it 6 months. i really have got to get one though cause my schedule next semester is going to be hard to work around with 2 other people's. i only have class 3 days a week though, which will be nice having friday and monday off. i just hope i dont start slacking to much in any of them though.
and that is my big update post for the time being. maybe one day i will be not so lazy and start making this a regular thing.
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| because i never post... |
[15 Nov 2005|02:27pm] |
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Reasons why i love my job:
- i have my own desk
- great pay
- i only work about 50% of the time i am here
- i get to do what i enjoy
- Matt + work = hilarity will ensue
- 2 big whiteboards that Matt and i fill with insults, japanese, and "FOR THE WIN" way too often
- My boss's storings about his past prankings
- wasting hours talking to everyone when i could have been working on something
- playing my music loud enough so everyone can hear it
Reasons why i dislike my job:
- coming to work way before Matt and being bored out of my mind
- not having much to do unless there is a project
- the phone ringing frequently
the pros definately outweigh the cons. But i need something to break this boredom.
p.s. happy belated birthday mig
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[12 Oct 2005|01:39am] |
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( im bored at 1:30am )
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| sugoi |
[02 Oct 2005|11:55pm] |
ah the typical Update:
- work is great. i love my job more and more as time progresses, minus stupid projects for stupid customers.
- im finally no longer employed by that evil corporation whose name we will not speak, and they gave me my fucking $100 backpay
- im buying a car soon but i dont know what to get...
- lately things are much better than they have been. even when i have rough times they always seem to be resolved much faster
- school isn't sucking but i just might fail a class...which would suck. i can't slack like i used to
- i saw serenity last night and its probably the best movie i've seen since Wedding Crashers and 40 Year old Virgin
thats all i can think of...
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| oh inverted world |
[18 Sep 2005|02:20am] |
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existance is as follows:
school, eat, work, study, eat, sleep. repeat.
stuff is all over the place these days and you dont get much of a break from it. if it isn't one thing its another and its becoming hard to take already. i guess i will try and suck it up and get through it all...theres so much to do and so little time to do it in, and juggling being a good friend on top of life is what sucks the most perhaps. i actually have taken time to see some people lately though...which is a nice change. i need a recreation schedule or something.
so now i will attempt sleep and try to wake up tomorrow and finish all of my homework and study for all of my tests before i have to go back to work and school and the cycle begins again.
on a lighter note, i just received the biggest paycheck of my life.
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| will you follow me home? |
[30 Aug 2005|12:28am] |
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your basic life update is as follows:
-my trip to washington was amazing, but i realized i should not spend all of my time with one group of people for more than 3 days at a time. there was almost shooting involved.
i got my promotion at the theater and soon after got a call back from a job/internship involving web technology and the like...of course, i put in my 2 weeks and my last day at Harkins is on the 6th. i miss Poca too much.
Matt is the best person ever. period.
im loving college, even though some might speculate that MCC is not a 'real college' and is like 'highschool' and to you i say fuck off and go back to your University where you are just a number, MCC is only like highschool if you make it like highschool. plus, i think the stupidity ratio is much higher at ASU. half the people going there are just going because they don't know what they want to do and their educational system told them college was their only option. alot of the people at MCC are returning students, which means they actually *want* and education. i can respect that.
i got my driver's license today. aren't you proud of me? [ok well at least im proud of myself!]
i will have a car once september rolls around...and a car payment...and an insurance bill. oh the wonders of reality.
i hung out with Jackie and Johnna the other night. i missed those kids. we didn't do much but did we ever do much? Jackie needs a job because i haven't been clothes shopping since May... MAY!
i think thats all. not much going on i guess.
p.s. MeWithoutYou on September 20th [i think], Metric on November 7th, Deathcab on November 8th.
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| self improvement is masterbation |
[28 Jul 2005|02:13pm] |
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that is perhaps the most meaningful thing i have ever heard anyone from Harkins say.
so i am a Manager [AM1 for J-Dawg] as of the 29th. is it bad that im not excited? im happy but... eh. everyone's upset with me for not being outwardly overjoyed about the whole thing but i am happy. 2 dollars and a quarter is a nice little payraise, plus i wont have to do bitchwork anymore. and thats all that really matters.
i don't know how to feel about some people and their reactions to things. some people HAVE to vent to everyone before they'll get over it. some people have to be sly and bring up the things that they secretly obsess about casually in everyday conversation just to see if they are wrong or not. why are they so worried about the useless people and things that don't matter when there are people [including me] who care and other things that are more important that could use your positive attention more. i try so hard and i know they do too but in the end all most people care about are the superficial things in this existance.
sometimes i dislike this humanistic instinct to only care about and crave whats on the surface. some people don't care how numb they are on the inside or even the outside, because they just want to live in the moment and feel something, anything against their skin. they dont care what happens the next moment or how their lives are going to end up the next month. i wish i could tell all the people i care about when they are worrying about useless things.
i get called a hypocrit alot and told that i have as many of these negative traits as everyone else but in the end i really try to improve myself and my line of thinking and the way i act and my unfaltering apathy. they don't...they just want to live in the moment.
i respect very few people because of things like this.
on a lighter note; i registered for school and im going on vacation in a week. Portland Oregon then Seattle then Vancouver. Mmm Canadia.
i think i am the happiest bunny i have ever possibly been but there is just something missing...i don't know what that something is but i am just not the same. ever get the feeling after you eat that you know you're going to be hungry for something an hour later but you don't know just what? i have had that feeling alot lately but in a more metaphoric sense. i'm happy, very content [well aside from the crappy past couple of weeks i have had] but i don't know exactly what it is.
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| point your gun in another direction now that you've cried yourself to sleep |
[16 Jul 2005|12:30pm] |
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§ yesterday was my first day being 18... i think i need a tattoo now
§ birthdays are more and more depressing as the years progress.
§ i think im working my way up in that god awful corporation
§ still haven't registered for school...gotta do that this week. i am the procrastination queen
§ i really need to move out if this stuff doesn't get any better
my updates just get more and more half assed as time progresses. oh well.
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| if you love something give it away |
[06 Jul 2005|03:28am] |
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+ Candice and Johnna are back, i get to work tomorrow with Candice. fun stuff.
+ i got a call for a job interview at Borders books, but its during my shift tomorrow...i think i can pull it off. i hope i get the job. working in a bookstore would be awesome.
+ i have all of next weekend off
+ i'll be 18 in 9 days. strip club?
+ i say things i dont mean to people i care about without thinking, and its far from deliberate. i think i'm plotting against myself.
+ RO is addicting
+ my fourth of july was ok. i got to see Ryan, haven't seen that kid in so long.
+ i've had about 5 hours of sleep in the past 60 hours.... and its quite painful. i gotta get over this insomnia thing
today was a good day.
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| lately I’ve been wishing I had one desire, something that would make me never want another |
[03 Jul 2005|01:24am] |
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an update, in a nutshell:
- i'm passive agressive
- i miss Candice and Johnna
- i think i'm in love
- i will be 18 in 12 days
- this summer is awesome
- i really want to major in psychology
- i still haven't registered for school
- my mom's out of town next weekend... shenanigans!
i still need a new job so i'm open to suggestions.
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| and all that i've seen means nothing to mewithoutyou |
[27 Jun 2005|01:33pm] |
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life has been the idealistic balance between pleasant and awful.
my mother gets worse and worse by the day. i swear she doesn't want me to be happy, she just wants me to be home.
work...i can't take. with Candice and Johnna out of town i lost the few things i actually enjoyed about work. now its Tim and Corrine pulling their management bullshit. Tim's on a piowertrip and Corrine doesn't know what 'anger displacement' is. i only work 3 days this week...i was scheduled 4, and i'm actually happy about that.
i put in 2 resumes and 3 applications last week and i plan on attmepting to get a management transfer if my other apps don't work out. its either that or AMC's management training program. can we say 'entry level position'? i really want the job at GameStop though...
the worst thing about this summer is i spend all day sitting at home doing nothing. everyone works during the day but me it seems. i still need to finish registering for my classes and whatnot, i can't wait to start going to MCC.
blah blah blah the end.
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| we'll be like torches |
[13 Jun 2005|01:33am] |
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2 months in exactly 7 days and i don't think i could be any happier.
went to a wedding on saturday night with Matt and the TMC crew [Candace/Candala and Jason/J-dawg]. it was fun, and the ceremony was beautiful and short, it only lasted about 10 minutes which is the shortest i have been through. i think one i went to was 45 minutes once. god that sucked so bad. anyway, the receptionw as fun too. at first we weren't going to stay but i think it was better than i thought it would be. Candace got me and Matt drinks from the open bar so we were buzzed most of the night.
after the reception we saw Mr and Mrs Smith and High Tension. Mr and Mrs Smith is probably one of the best movies i have seen in a long time. its cheesie with the action and comedy but the whole point of the story sort of balances it out. perfect amount of drama and humor and action. High Tension was...boring. it wasn't crappy, just overly done. cool concept and a cool feel but too much gore and what not for something thats not really scary. if it were more like Identity and held back on the gore it might have been a better movie...but not as 'cool'.
i'll be 18 soon. i don't know if i'm excited about that or not yet. we'll see.
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| malduin |
[24 May 2005|07:37pm] |
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best month of my life
so Poca's closing the 2nd of June and i shall miss it. Fiesta 5 is fun though. i just hope i don't get burnt out.
i'm sick and tired of trying with people who don't even matter. if you have a problem with me then don't pretend to be my friend all the time, just do it when it matters. then, in the end, the effort wont be a waste.
( what would LJ be without rants? )
i have no idea.
so school is over and i'm still indifferent. so whats new?
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| all things lovely only hurt my head |
[07 May 2005|11:38am] |
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so prom is tonight? am i excited? yes...but this whole thing is exhausting. you'd think i was getting married with how my family is going about it. and work last night took its toll on me so who knows how i will be holding up tonight in those shoes. oiy ve.
speaking of work, if you're going to be a sarcastic, condescending, arrogant bitch, expect a reaction from the people who also carry sarcastic, condescending, arrogant traits. me, Candice, and Tim have radar on this sort of thing, and it will agitate us very much.
i`m finally excited about graduating too, its very close and i want it over with.
ok i'm done.
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| "you are just the sweetest little thing"... |
[29 Apr 2005|09:14pm] |
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this week has proven interesting:
i still need to get shoes for prom tomorrow morning. i really shouldn't have gotten a light pink dress.
i`m sick and i have been for days now and it sucks.
last night i went to a party at Candice and Tim's. For some reason i always have my epiphanies and shocking/wonderful realizations when i`m doing shots in their kitchen. i don`t think i have ever been this... ok with anything in the longest time. i feel 'enlightened' for lack of a better way to describe it, but i wonder how long this will last.
i realize i have the most amazing friends, even if we do barely talk or see eachother. we still have a lot of fun and we still mean a lot to eachother and thats what really matters. right? and even if its not, i don't care, thats all that really matters to me right now...and whats matters to me reight now is all that should ever matter.
Matt and i are going to prom with Brooke, Ryan, Vanessa [who i don't know], Chris [who i just met!], Ted, and Tiffany and it has been guarenteed 'magical'. i know it will be lots of fun, even if Ted just pesters me the whole night and Ryan tries to out-debate me. good times. stuff like this is making me realize how much i just might miss this fucked up little sector of my existance.
i will never be able to look at Marcy with a straight face ever again. Her and Tim in a room together will be even worse... god and i wont be able to step a foot into booth either! it was all worth the laughs though, gotta love those crazy Poca inside jokes....or maybe Tim and i are just on something.
all in all a good week
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| oh inverted world |
[20 Apr 2005|09:44pm] |
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sooo better moodage. being off of work is awesome and i know i am going to hate it when i have to go back.
tonight i hung out with Cayla, and it was supar. i haven't just been out to hang out in a group of people other than the work crew in a while. first we went to Bookmen's and got Danrachy a game for his [belated] bday, then we went to Atomic Comics and talked to some weird chick who tried to convince us to see Puffy Ami Yumi, stared at a really hot guy, bought Danarchy a Naruto poster [that i want to steal!] and bought some X-Man [stupid alternate universe bs] comics for Cayla's fiance. theeeen we went to Coffee Cabana and hung out with a bunch of people that i barely know, but it was fun none the less.
why most of my really good friends at least 3 or 4 years older than me?? i don't know but i missed Cayla and Dan. i think i'll start doing that on Wednesday nights [when im not being reminded by JASON to go to his house for Alias night. you know, if i don't burden you because you want to go to the bar. im not being left alone with Lilliana and Garret!]
other than that my week has been shitty but very very productive. looking for a new job at the moment and hoping i get anything.
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